Self Portrait, as in Divisible
Passing a book on
Feng Shui in the mirrored hallway
I instead open
another on the paintings of Botero
where the purity of
deformed spheres seems
to both mock and
praise realityÕs
obesity, while
attempting to stir
an argument on the
multiplicities
of life: that we are
only alike as
the likeness of some
original.
Ocelot, my cat,
is a woolsucker. His
large yellow-chipped green eyes
slandering,
splintering, muscles contracting orgasmically
as he grips the
riverrock-colored afghan
and draws out the
empty milk of a memory, and is fed by it.
He has learned this
from no one.
He folds up and
sleeps in the opulence of brain.
Is he an occurrence
of form
or its ghost?
Seeming both the pattern
and the thing
itself, he is even more
than that, being
also an idea, which survives
within me, snatched
however briefly from extinction.
This is how we are
changed and made new.
We are the idea of
ourselves driven into being.
Our bodies fit to
form as we create the patterns.
All mirrors are
wrong. There is no such thing as imitation.
© 2007 Joe Millar / Brooklyn Arts Press